Hurt Hearts
Twent an entire day without meeing Thane, That thought probably senata 1 have Been
disnodesed in an alpha duties, ralids, regues etc., but Cyrus had ne miteer for me as to why Chadar seen there all day. Ar lite tata, f
was something pack related briping Thane meat. There wasnt. Clearly the thing keeping Thane away in Himself De me for that mutuet
been so stupid. Trust was something I didn’t have the homes of thinking ont. I knew better, but I did it anyway. Could the metesting? Przedly but me heart borts, memetheless. I checked my phone and wouldn t you know, Nothing. Not even a check up on me text. Ite always sent those, it’s Stinge bees the nicht in the
Now I’ll on my couch. Much the me at every day. Tserpt, today I find myself plotting. Motting my escape from what? Heartbreak apparently Looking at the facts, It’s obvious 1 ran’1 up and leme. I have nowhere to go. No family left, I am totally alone and completely at the mercy of this park. I have tended or enge for another. This one is a much better cage, don’t get me wrong, but a cage regardlen.
I am currently wearing holes in the carpet from my incessant passing and biting of my nails. I am beyond anxious; I pull mit my phone, which consisti of three phone numbers, Thane, Eric, and Cynus. Į sheild probably get Monica’s as well, I poft op a message and send it to Cyrus
Me: Can you get me out of my room? I feel like I am suffocating bete.
Cyrus: Have you asked Thane to take you somewhere? Show yo
Me: No. I don’t really want to see him right now.
you around some more?
Cyrus: Oh, so I am the lucky guy that can take you around now? I am glad you trust me Ayla..
Me: 1 don’t trust you. I don’t trust anyone now. I just need to get out and I need to get out now.
I can feel a ripple in my mental barrier. A slight mudge. Aramana is there, I can just barely feel her. If she was here right now, she would take us far away. bet she could find somewhere we could start over. Or we could just he rogues. The two of us alone. We survived all my last 10 years. She could surve anything. We wouldn’t even need a pack. A few days on our men and she would have all the wolf survival skills she would need, not to mention my other skills that come from my type of wolf. A type no one can find out about. The longer I stay here, the higher the likelihood of that happening
Caramane I need you. I need you so badly right now“. I push into my mind, desperate. “Please don’t leave me alone anymore. I can’t do this.” I can sense her, but I can’t contact her. There is something in the way, I just don’t know what.
I slide down the wall of my bedroom. Hands over my eyes, I feel broken. No, I don’t feel it, I am. I am broken. Messed up beyond repair. Damaged goods that Thane doesnt want. Nobody wants. My own wolf doesn’t even want me. I am utterly and completely helpless, alone. I can’t do this anymore. I can’t feel this
way anymore.
and had their
Looking across the room into the full–length mirror, I should see myself, but I don’t. I see the warden. The disgusting alphas that drugged way with me. I see myself helplessly on the table, my trattore agga body doing things I don’t want it to do. I see myself dragged from my cage, beaten and broken. Spit upon and tormented. They are in my thoughts. Behind my eye lids. I can’t escape the monsters.
They own me.
They will have me forever.
Whether I am caged or not.
I will never be free.
A sub racks through my chest, but no tears fall frogh my eyes. They are close. Unfortunately, manbeesstakes over and I find myself staring, in a catatonic like state, reliving one nightmare after another. This all my life will ever be
I must have fallen asleep, or something is in my eyes. My eyes are blurry, my vision almost tunneled. I can hear someone talking faintly in the background
of my mind. Two someone’s. Their speech is garbled, muffled almost. I can’t make out what they are saying, but I can hear their words are getting louder and my body is jostling around.
Shaking is someone shaking me?
Then I heard it. Someone is yelling. Their yells are loud and never–ending. Full of pain and desperation.
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A feminine võire.
Then I hear in name clearly being called while i am plaken armand.
Am I screaming? Lean no Ning talk, but apparently in less than 24 hours Fein Joah and scream Lite has some celle
The Estes must be laughing at me,
They must have spent the last ten
venin laughing at me.
Dyla, la, 11 is me, Thane. Stop hating yousell. Avia STOP
Thane is here, and he is trying to use an alpha bark on me. What I am not sure, unter it is to get to stop screaming Alpha barks don’t work on me, but he wouldn’t know that. Well, he knows now, I guess. Another secret that is trying to snem its way out of me
“Avda stop! You are hurting yoursel. You need to calm down little wolf. Store your breathing down and top clawing your neck.
Clawing my neck? I don’t feel anything.
Oh wait, there it is. Pain. Something I
Yes, apparently, I am hurting myself. Why? I dont know. I am trying to arouse and break through to the chans around me, but it isn’t working. The worden is here, in my mind. He is beating me. He has a chain around my neck.
The chain. It’s here. I have to get it off. I have to GET IT OFF!
Thane, she’s getting worse. I need to sedate her. She is having a full–blown panic attack, probably hallucinating by the looks of her body. She’s trying to get something off of her
I know that voice. It is Eric, the healer. Yes, he can help me get it off.
“Do it. Give her whatever she needs. Hurry” I feel a small prick in my neck, then a rush of warmth. Darkness floods my vision and the voices stop.
Веер. Веер. Веер. Всер. Веер. Веер,
Lish dub. Lub dub. Lub dub.
“When will she wake up Eric. What the hell happened back there? I went to check on her and she was screaming and clawing at her neck. Nothing 1 said was helping her at all. Nothing worked.”
“Alpha Thane, she has severe PTSD which causes hallucinations. I am sure I don’t have to explain any of that to you. She was probably deep into a hallucination. What we need to figure out was what triggered it. If we can identify her triggers, bextiles the obvious, we can help her avoid this in the future.
“What is the obvious trigger?”
“Men. Alpha shifters. Anything sexual in nature, Cages, medical injections etc.”
“Well, we have spent some time together. Doing various…activities that should have triggered her, but they didn’t. Not at the time anyway,”
“Alpha, I am not judging, nor do I care. It appears she really trusts you. Some emotional trigger must have set her ofE A Blashback caused by something. It could have been anything.”
“Cyrus is outside Eric. Please let him in.“
thing alpha.”
the bell happened Thane? I didn’t tell you she needed to get out of her room for you to bring her to the damn hospital”
“What th
“She was having a parte attack. I am pot sure what brought it on.”
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het if you think hard enough Thane, you can probably figure it out.
“What the hell are you talking about Dyrna?”
Nothing
Never mind Thane,
“What? If you have something to say, say it
“Oh, I get plenty to say. Now isn’t the time though.
Are they arguing over me? I must be back in the clinke. I feel groggy and 1.
is going on around me not able to open my eyes, but I can hear what is going on around me
“How the hell are you going to tell her that someone is out there running around the town looking for her because the is his mate? You can’t tell her like this. What if it sends her into another one of these episodes?” Cyrus continars arguing with Thane, but I am only focused on one part of his conversation….
Did he say matc
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Debbie Murray
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I don’t believe that other male is her mate, and until her wolf comes forward she needs to be protected.
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