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Apologies 2

Apologies 2

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The nausea slammed into me before I was even fully awake

One breath, one twitch of my limbs under the sheets, and my stomach revolted. I barely had time to stumble into the bathroom before I was on my knees, vomiting into the toilet bowl. Cold sweat coated my spine, my hands trembling as I clutched the porcelain rim

Stress. That had to be it. The emotional wreckage from the past two days had finally caught up with me, and now my body was betraying me too

I forced myself to breathe, to rise unsteadily to my feet, and rinse my mouth at the sink. As I looked up, my eyes landed on the small wall calendar tacked beside the mirrordays crossed off with a red pen

Something clicked

I stared. My heart stuttered

Wait

I was late. Not by a day or twobut by nearly two weeks. I hadn’t even realized, too distracted by heartbreak and survival. Panic shot through me, fast and suffocating

With shaking fingers, I tore through the drawers under the sink, flinging open every box and case until I found onethe small, flat box I never thought I’d need again. A pregnancy test

I sat on the edge of the bathtub, holding the stick in my hand, my entire body humming with dread. Minutes dragged. My breath was shallow. My vision blurred againbut this time it wasn’t from sleep or sickness

Two red lines

The room tilted slightly. My heartbeat thundered in my ears

If this had been yesterdaybefore everything fell apartI would have run to Bryan, glowing with joy, ready to tell him he was going to be a father. We would have cried together, maybe even celebrated with that anniversary dinner I’d planned. The image of it flashed through my mind- our home bathed in warm light, our hands tangled across the table, laughter and whispered 

dreams

But that was a lie. That version of us never really existed

Instead, I could only hear his voice echoing in my head. Sarcastic, cruel. She’s just a placeholder since Suzanne left me. And Shaun’s chuckle. What if she finds out Suzanne made her deaf

gripped the sink, willing myself not to scream

Thenthree soft knocks on the door. I froze

Sweetheart?Bryan’s voice, muffled but familiar, seeped through the wood. You okay in there?My stomach twisted, not from illness this timebut from the bile of rage and sorrow rising in my 

throat

He was home

I didn’t have time to think. I hastily shoved the pregnancy test into the medicine cabinet behind the mirror and splashed water on my face. My fingers were still shaking as I forced a smile

brushing away the sweat and tears before unlocking the door

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3.5

3:47 pm

Bryan stood there, dressed in a crisp shirt and slacks like always, his features arranged in concern. His gaze darted from my pale face to the broken vase on the floor and the thin line of blood on my palm

His hands moved quickly in sign language

What happened? Are you hurt?” 

I swallowed the truth and forced the lie. I’m fine. I justwasn’t feeling well. I knocked it over.” 

He stepped forward, brushing past me to grab the firstaid kit under the sink. Be careful,” he signed, flashing a soft smile. You’re too precious to get hurt over something so small.” 

If I hadn’t known better, I might’ve believed him. Might’ve melted into his arms, let him patch up my wounds and whisper empty reassurances. But I did know better

As he dabbed antiseptic onto my hand, his face twitched slightlyjust for a second

Stupid woman,he muttered under his breath, too low for someone who couldn’t hear

My blood ran cold

That vase cost a fortune and she breaks it like it’s some thrift store junk” 

My heart stung. But I stayed still. Silent. Let him finish wrapping the wound without flinching. He still didn’t know. Still believed I was deaf, trapped in silence

I wasn’t. Not anymore

My thoughts drifted

Back to the orphanage where I grew up. To the first time I met Bryanhis family had donated books and clothes. He was the only one who spoke to me like I mattered. Like I was more than just a number in the system

Even then, I knew he loved someone else. Suzanne. The girl who glittered like the stars he always reached for

Then came the accident. A blur of headlights. A scream. Silence

I woke up deaf and alone. And then Bryan proposed. I believed, with everything in me, love. That he chose me. That I was enough

I had been so wrong

that it was 

He pulled away, tapping my bandaged hand lightly. I have to leave town for a few days. Business trip,” he signed

I nodded with practiced calm. Safe travels.” 

Just then, his phone buzzed. Before he could silence it, the speaker clicked on

Where are you, baby?Suzanne’s sultry voice filled the room

Bryan grinned at the sound, casting a sideways glance at me. Leaving now. My darling wife thinks I’m off for a board meeting.” 

I stood frozen, willing myself not to react

Good,” Suzanne cooed. Because I’m already in lingerie, waiting in your hotel suite.” 

Bryan chuckled, ended the call, and turned to me again, his face perfectly serene as he signed

3:49 pm

Get some rest, love. You look pale.” 

I nodded once

He left with a kiss to my forehead that made my skin crawl

The moment the front door shut behind him, I turned the lock. My knees gave out and I slid to the floor, my body heaving with silent sobs

This man had taken everythingmy trust, my voice, my lifeand now he had taken this too. Our 

child

But he wasn’t going to win

That night, as the city outside blurred into orange and violet dusk, I made my decision

I wouldn’t bring a child into this house of lies. Into this poisoned love

The hospital was quiet. The procedure fast. The pain afterward was a different storyraw souldeep, and hollowing. It wasn’t the physical hurt. It was the grief of letting go. The grief of once believing something real had existed between us

I stayed in that hospital bed for three days. No calls. No messages. Not from Bryan

Not even a lie to ask if I was okay

When the nurse handed me my discharge papers, I clutched them tightly, as if they were my declaration of freedom

As I turned to leave, a sudden voice halted me

Oh my God.” 

spun to find an older woman standing there, eyes wide and glistening. She wore a cashmere coat, pearls at her throat, and trembling hands that reached toward me

I’ve been searching for you,” she whispered. For years.” 

blinked. Excuse me?” 

Youyou’re the lost Lindsey girl.” 

My breath caught

What?” 

Her hand reached for my neck, gently brushing aside my hair. Her fingertips landed on the mark just beneath my eara birthmark I had always known but never questioned

She gasped. Her knees buckled as she clutched my arms

It’s you. That markit’s only passed down through the Lindsey bloodline. My God, I never thought I’d find you.” 

My world shifted

The Lindseys. The name echoed in my mind. One of the wealthiest families in the country. Owners of international corporations, headlines, and legacies

And Iwas one of them

The woman looked at me with tears streaming down her face. Welcome home, my darling. We thought we lost you forever.” 

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